I really always called myself a not-people-photographer for a couple of reasons. 1) you have to deal with people, which i did not want to do for a long time for a multitude of reasons. Obligations to ask permission, not wanting to deal with masks and facades that people put onto themselves, etc... 2) not wanting to having to live up to other peoples expectations. Especially around weddings. The one special day of a lifetime and what if you miss THE moment?! 3) I really didn't feel like i was ready to feel confident about what i can do with the camera. So a solid portion of shame and lack of self-confidence was in the pot as well. And then of course it happend what had to happen... friends and family started to ask if i could take some pictures... 'mmmnnngngnggaaaaOkkkish (?)' Damnit, a serious lack of not being able to say clearly but lovingly NO pushed some buttons as well and there I was. On the wedding of some friends. And then... surprisingly I found that there was already enough self-confidence established, enough boldness, enough detachment from other peoples expectations, that i just dove into my viewfinder and my own flow, and enjoyed the day! Before going through the pictures the first time my brain of course was full of 'I missed this that' and 'there i should have been earlier or closer or whatever...' Just to find myself finding out, that wedding photography somehow seems to be really easy going! Nice people on a beautiful day for a really special occasion tends to be the easiest thing to shoot, even if you think you missed so much that you perceived, there are soooo many amazing shots that the missing out monster went quite silent rather quickly. It still likes to poke it's head out every now and then, but i learned to welcome it and unwind the energy that it likes to wrap into as disguise and re-wind it into faces, funny moves, unconventional poses and places to just enjoy a beautiful day with beautiful people and then beautiful pictures are sort of the by-product anyways.
